Today I am grateful that 4 years ago I quit smoking and it’s the healthiest and hardest thing I have ever done. My body is thankful. My heart is thankful. My lungs are thankful. My family is thankful. My home is thankful. My car is thankful. My life is thankful.
I was tired of being sick and tired and I even more tired of the excuses I made for myself why I was sick all the time. I was good at making excuses as to why I could keep smoking and why I should keep smoking. I made these excuses not only to myself, but friends and family as well. These are the highlights:
- I will gain weight
- It calms my nerves
- I helps me focus
- I don’t smoke that much
- I don’t smoke those heavy duty cigarettes
- I don’t drink so smoking is my vice
- I don’t have the will power
- I will be the biggest “B” you’ve ever heard
- I am not sick again because I smoke
- I like smoking (ya, can you believe that one?!!)
I created this addiction and I knew it would be hard to give it up. I really wasn’t a heavy smoker, but I knew having even one was not good for you. At the beginning of 2011 I got really sick and I felt like I just couldn’t shake it. Deep down I knew it didn’t help that I smoked and when I got well I chose a date and worked my way toward that day. I didn’t tell anyone I was going to quit for many reasons. I didn’t want the “how are you doing” “did you have a cigarette today” “do you feel ok?” “oh that’s why your crabby” and if I failed I didn’t want to be reminded I failed.
I did a lot of reading on how to quit and as the day approached I was nervous, but ready. I decided to quit cold turkey without any patches or medications. March 4th came and I threw away the cigarettes I had left and I went about my day. I did change many things that I knew would be triggers to want to smoke. I did the dishes right after dinner. I didn’t talk on the phone as long and I didn’t make phone calls. I chewed gum in the car and used coffee stirrers to ease the urge when I wanted to smoke. I went to bed earlier and read a book. I didn’t sit still for too long. A few days into it the boys noticed, but it took my husband over a week and I had to tell him. I must not have been to crabby huh?
I will say that it wasn’t easy. I felt lousy for a over a month and cough… ugh I thought that would never go away. But, every single day I went without smoking it was a day to celebrate and the cravings began to subside. Every day that went by also was a better reason NOT to smoke as now it was the principal of it all. Every day that I didn’t smoke became a choice I was now making and that the addiction wasn’t making for me. The only down side for me is the weight gain and I added much to my frame and I am having a hard time getting the motivation to commit to losing it. I am healthy though and it comes with the territory of quitting.
I never liked the smell of smoke, but now it’s overwhelming and it really bothers me. I will never preach to anyone about how they have to quit. I will tell them that I feel healthier and that the excuses are really just lies I told myself. I am grateful I made that choice and that I have added years to my life to enjoy my grandchildren whenever I am blessed with them and my retirement years.
If you are thinking of quitting, please don’t hesitate to reach out as I would be glad to be a vocal support system for you!